More information is being released about the Arapahoe High School shooting that happened last week in Colorado. While one victim, Claire Davis, remains comatose in a local hospital, another victim-survivor, Matt Bowers, is speaking out about his experience and the special message he wanted to share with his family should something have happened to him.
"Adrenaline was pumping through every vein in my body but I could not release it," Bowers wrote in a blog post about the shooting. "All I could do was sit there and pray."
Bowers and his classmates were finally released from the school and had to remain outside while authorities moved into the building to investigate the situation. Bowers noticed a flock of geese flying above and he wrote, "I couldn't help but think that each one of those hundreds of geese were family members and friends around the world looking down over us, praying for every single one of us."
The students were taken to a nearby church for safety and care while they waited to be picked up by their parents. This is when Bowers decided he wanted to make sure his family and friends knew he was at peace with the situation should anything happen to him.
"I recalled the event. The sound of the guns; the tears streaming down the faces of the ones I love. But the biggest thing I remembered was the prayers I was imploring to God, 'Please God, keep me safe, keep my classroom safe, and just keep everyone else that you can safe from this evil person. I know you have so much in store for me, please don't let my life end now,'" he blogged.
"I looked down at my hand, only to remember that during the chaos and pleading with the Lord, I wrote a quick note on myself – in case my situation came to this point – with a ballpoint pen I happened to have in my pocket: 'Family, I love you all so much. I'm here now,'" and there was a cross sign underneath his words.
Bowers had the opportunity to speak with CNN's Jake Trapper and said that he drew the cross, meaning that he was in heaven because "that's where I genuinely thought I was headed if Karl [Pierson] happened to stumble into our classroom and actually end it for all of us."
"I have never had such a frightening experience in my life before like that," Bowers said. "It really changed how I looked at my life, and just my whole perspective on what life is."