"Teen Mom" star Farrah Abraham's life has played out in front of MTV cameras, but the young mother has also written her first book, a memoir entitled "My Teenage Dream Ended." In it, she has revealed her battle with depression and suicide.
"All I could think about was killing myself," Abraham told In Touch magazine. She was overwhelmed with grief surrounding the death of her boyfriend and baby Sophia's father, Derek Underwood. She locked herself and Sophia in their house for three full days.
"I figured I would drown myself in the bathtub-that seemed like the easiest way to go," she added. The thought of leaving her daughter helped pull Abraham through the suicidal thoughts; she didn't want to leave her alone with no parents.
"I didn't want her to have to feel the way that I was feeling," Abraham explained.
Eventually Abraham was able to get help for her depression and has written about the benefits of therapy and antidepressants in her memoir.
"Therapy helped me manage my emotions. I was diagnosed with clinical depression, so I truly needed medication and frequent sessions with a counselor to get back on track," she admitted.
The "Teen Mom" star will wrap up the series this summer, much to the dismay of fans who have followed her story since it began on "16 & Pregnant." Abraham's story was unique in that she did not have a partner to raise Sophia with after Underwood was killed in a car accident.
In addition to her book, Abraham hopes to continue pursuing her college degree with the intent to become a chef. She has also written and recorded an album to be released at the same time as her memoir.
"I want to be known for the person I am, not the teenager I used to be," Abraham said.