Porsha Stewart Hesitated to Share Marriage Issues With Real Housewives of Atlanta Cast Mates

Porsha Stewart is admitting she was embarrassed to admit that her marriage was dissolving to her co-stars on "The Real Housewives of Atlanta."

"When I was married, I held that flag of being a wife so strong. And for me I felt like if I told the girls exactly what was going on, they would say 'I told you so,'" Stewart said on the Bravo network show Sunday. "And then it would make me feel like everything I was doing was wrong. And I did not want to have a group of women judge me and my household because everything I did as a wife, everything I did as a mother, I meant it."

Stewart, "The Real Housewives of Atlanta" reality television star, said she learned through Twitter that her estranged former NFL playing husband Kordell was divorcing her last March. While Stewart spend much of season five of her showcasing her marriage, season six will show viewers how she is getting through a difficult divorce.

Porsha, the granddaughter of civil-rights leader Hosea Williams, was shocked by the news of her divorce and publicly admitted it. She detailed the terrible feeling that she had when having to sit through her divorce deposition with Kordell.

"It was just terrible... to hear him say, 'She wasn't home at a certain time so I locked her out?' That was really, really hard to listen to listen to…," Porsha told her mother and sister on the show between tears. "Seeing Kordell at the deposition, was like an out-of-body experience…"

According to Porsha, the pair's divorce will be official in about a month.

"In about 30 days it will be finalized," she told talk show host Wendy Williams.

The reality television star recently appeared on "The Wendy Williams Show" where she explained why she was keeping her surname.

"I'm going to keep Stewart. A lot of people say, 'Why?! Give him his name,'" she told talk show host Wendy Williams. "It's not his name, it's my name. I was Porsha Williams at one part in my life before I got married."

Now, Stewart said she is a completely different woman.

"Marriage has taught me so much," she told Williams. "I'm a whole other woman now so I'm going to own that last name. It belongs to me."