"16 and Pregnant" star Amber Portwood is reportedly depressed and now regretting the decision she made to choose prison over rehabilitation.
Following a confrontation with her ex-boyfriend and a suicide attempt, Portwood was sentenced to rehab therapy for anger management issues and depression. The sentence was lenient from the judge who had originally decided that she should be sentenced to five years in prison.
However after a short stay in rehab, Portwood insisted that she would rather do her time in jail than spend another day in rehab.
"In my situation, I felt in the program there were a lot of eyes on me. And it was very uncomfortable," Portwood said during a jailhouse interview with ABC News. "You know, I was very depressed, all alone, all bitter at everybody. I felt like that wasn't the life I wanted to live, I felt like I'd rather do my time, and get it over with, and make the best out of the situation that's been handed to me."
Now however, Portwood feels that she may have made a mistake by deciding to go back to prison, as she is still depressed, according to family members.
"Amber is very depressed," her brother Shawn told OK! magazine. "She realizes now that she made a bad decision by going to jail. She misses her family and feels guilty about all of the things she did to hurt them."
Although Portwood has allegedly been making attempts to call her daughter Leah while in prison, a new episode in the series anticipates that Portwood may choose to give up custody of her daughter all together.
"Amber calls him collect every day so she can talk to Leah," Shawn said. "She tries not to cry on the phone."
However Portwood now feels that there is "too much pressure to raise a baby," according to a separate source who spoke to Ok. "She says, 'I screwed up my own life enough; why screw up someone else's worse?'"