By their very nature, pastors are a confidential lot. They counsel numbers of people who share their deepest secrets and problems. They know things about families that could hurt and embarrass them if they shared information freely. So pastors tend to keep secrets and confidential information well. In most cases, you can feel comfortable that your confidence will not be breached when you talk to a pastor.
But most people don't realize pastors have their own secrets. These spiritual leaders refuse to share their thoughts or pains for fear that their own ministries will be damaged.
So they keep the secrets.
And they hold the pain to themselves.
As I have spoken to pastors across the land, many have confided in me their hurts and secrets. I don't think they would mind that I share these secrets with you, as long as I don't identify them with any one pastor by name.
1. "My marriage is struggling."
Pastors are on call 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Oftentimes family meals are interrupted by a call. A planned date with a wife is put on hold because of an emergency related to a church member. Pastors' wives sometimes wonder if their husbands are married to them or to the church. Resentment and marital fights are not uncommon.
2. "I fear my kids will grow up hating the church."
One pastor told me in tears the story of a church member criticizing the pastor's wife to the pastor in front of his 12-year-old son. The young boy went home insisting he hated the church and never wanted to return. Children are often exposed to the dark side of church life. Pastors worry that they won't recover.
3. "I let a handful of critics control me."
These pastors wish the squeaky wheel didn't always get oiled, but such is the reality in many churches. "If I ignore them (the critics), " one pastor told me, "they will make life miserable for me and my family. Sometimes it's just best to give them their way."
4. "I often have anger toward the supportive church members who don't defend me to my critics."
"It's not my critics who bother me personally," the pastor shared with me. "It's the so-called supportive members who refuse to come to my defense when I'm attacked by a critic. Going into a business meeting, one of these supporters told me how much he loved me, and how he would always have my back. Fifteen minutes later, I'm being castigated by three members who hardly ever attend church. What does my supporter do or say? Absolutely nothing. That's what really hurts."
5. "I've thought about quitting several times."
These pastors are truly called men of God. They really do love their congregations. Most of them will endure the criticisms aimed at them personally. But when supportive members really don't support them, or when family members are hurt, many pastors think about quitting. "Only one thing has stopped me from quitting," the pastor said. "It's the call of God. That's what keeps me hanging on."
Through this blog and through other venues, I intend to do everything I can in God's power to be the pastor's advocate. The pastorate is one of the toughest jobs in the world. Indeed, it's an impossible job in human power alone.
Pastors, how can we best help you? Church members, what can we do to be the best pastor advocate possible?