In what appears to be a public cry for help to God, popular R&B singer Chris Brown recently lamented his life as a burden that would make the "average man" commit suicide and says he's tired of the devil ruining his life.
In an Instagram post he shared with his fans last week, Brown said he thinks the average man would have committed suicide if he had to endure what he has to deal with on a daily basis and says he heard "God speak for the first time."
"When u tired of the [expletive] devil ruining your life and u hear God speak for the first time. No one knows what I deal with on a day to day. The average man wouldn't hesitate to blow his [expletive] brains out ...," wrote Brown in the post.
"Most won't understand the genius and beauty in change and learning and the people who have devilish intentions will win in the short term. My soul will always be pure of heart. What's on the surface always looks like one big party but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance," he continued.
"People say 'be a man.' Yeah, that's right but it doesn't take away any pain you really go through. I just wanna stay out the way and do music. Most importantly and great father. I don't have any more patience for anything that will cause me to self destruct!!" Brown added.
The post has been liked 285,000 times on Instagram and elicited and outpouring of support from his fans many of whom concluded that they think God is calling him.
"You feel this way because your life does not match up with the Bible. You say you love God bro, but your actions do not prove it fam. Also you need accountability, there are not many people around you who tell you the truth about yourself, only what you want to hear. God has a plan for your life bro, but you must be willing to give up EVERYTHING. Not some things, everything. That's what he is calling you to do," wrote Instagram user wordforthought1, who reveals on his profile page that he is "in love with God."
"I want you to know that I am not a fan of your music, but you said you want God, and as a disciple of Jesus Christ it is my purpose to guide men to the truth. You asked God and here it is," he added.
Brown who is currently on tour and is expected to perform in Israel on Monday was caught on camera performing nine backflips in a row on a beach in Tel Aviv.